Eyes wide open, mind convincing the body it’s too tough to wake up & head to the gym. After struggling for a few minutes, in half laziness, I got ready, locked the door & started walking to the gym.
With multiple thoughts striking my mind, I started warming up. As I completed my warm-up, I went to the strength training floor. As usual, there were new faces and NO WOMEN.
With corner sight, it felt like people are staring at me (maybe it’s all in my mind, I thought). With discomfort, thoughts started striking my mind again “Is my tights see through”, “Is my vagina shape visible”, “Is my form correct”. Finally, the thought of “not giving a fuck” suppressed all other thoughts.
With body trying to make mind to muscle connection, the trainer looked at me and with hand expression asked me to pull out my earphones.
With confidence, he asked me, how much weight I use to do this exercise? Instantly, he itself answered (I nodded) and while he was comparing me to the other person (New face). The person responded, “She is too fit than me”. I did not know how to respond.
If for many years in your life you have been an over-weighed person, the image of you being fat will be saved in your subconscious mind. If someone says you are fit, generally it will not make you happy 🙂
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